This Is It, I’m Just Me
by Lana Poulson
Dominant in the Streets, Submissive in the Sheets
About this podcast
This Is It, I’m Just Me
This isn’t just a podcast. It’s a living memoir. Most memoirs tell a story up until a certain point in someone’s life. This one doesn’t have an ending — because I’m still living it. I’m Lana, a trans woman navigating life one chapter at a time, sharing the experiences that shape us through personal stories, honest reflections, and real research. From love and dating to family, identity, friendship, boundaries, heartbreak, resilience, self-discovery, and everything in between, I explore both the deeply personal moments of my life and the bigger conversations happening around them.
Some chapters are funny. Some are uncomfortable. Some are difficult. And some simply ask questions we should be talking about. I don’t claim to have all the answers — I’m sharing what I’ve lived, what I’ve learned, what I’ve questioned, and sometimes what the research has to say. There’s no polished version of me here, just my life, my perspective, my mistakes, my growth, my curiosity, and the stories still unfolding. Because this isn’t a story that has already been written. It’s a life still being lived. My views. My thoughts. My life.
Episodes
The newest 20 of 137 episodes
- Dominant in the Streets, Submissive in the Sheets · 15 minThey look confident. They work out. They take charge. They might run the show all day long… but behind closed doors? Some of them are ready to get on their knees and hand over…
- Not Setting for Less · 20 minDating as a trans woman isn’t simply about finding someone who’s attracted to you. It’s navigating chasers, DL men, married men, couples, fetishization, secrecy, labels, sex, and…
- You Don’t Know Me From Google · 18 minIf you Google Lana Poulson, you’re going to find quite a bit — articles, photographs, videos, podcasts, advocacy, art and pieces of a life lived publicly. But finding someone…
- Living With Cancer, Even When It’s Not Yours · 23 minCancer doesn’t just affect the person who receives the diagnosis—it can change an entire family. In this deeply personal chapter, I explore what it’s like to have watched cancer…
- Grindr: The Good, The Bad & The Ugly · 23 minGrindr is one of the easiest dating apps to actually connect on—no endless swiping, no waiting for a match, just people nearby and the ability to start a conversation. But that…
- Talk Is Cheap & Modern Dating · 13 minAfter decades of dating, I have learned that words can be beautiful—but they aren’t always evidence. From the disappearing “good morning gorgeous” to promises to call that never…
- Being Single Is a Flex, Not a Curse · 30 minWe’ve been taught that being single means something is missing — but does it? In this chapter of This Is It, I’m Just Me, I explore singlehood, relationships, loneliness, and…
- When Siblings Become Strangers · 18 minSometimes the people we grew up with become the people we no longer recognize. In this chapter, I explore sibling fallouts, resentment, aging parents, family expectations…
- The Quiet Life · 17 minIn this deeply personal episode, I talk about where I’ve been, why the podcast has been quieter, and the unexpected shift happening in my life. After years of being visible…
- Maybe We Don’t Need a Label · 7 minIn this chapter, I talk about what happens when you step away from the noise—like leaving Instagram and barely using Facebook—and start hearing yourself again. When the constant…
- The Beauty of Living Alone (And Letting Soft Paw Love In) · 7 minIn this chapter, I talk about something that often gets misunderstood—living alone. Not as loneliness… but as peace. As intention. As a life that’s been carefully shaped to feel…
- Chatelaine: The 1953 Archives (Pt. 2) · 19 minContinuing through the 1953 archives of Chatelaine, this chapter dives into two very different stories—The Story of Two Fat Men and From Merrie England to Massy by Judith…
- Chatelaine: The 1953 Archives · 23 minIn this first episode of Chatelaine: The 1953 Archives, I open the March 1953 issue of Chatelaine and begin at the very beginning — including a section where readers take over…
- Dumping Instagram · 10 minI didn’t post a farewell story. I didn’t announce a break. I just deleted Instagram. In this episode, I share why I made the clean cut, what it’s like stepping away from a…
- Fire Horse Energy · 7 minLana dives into the Fire Horse energy—a bold, transformative force that shakes up life, clears old connections, and opens space for new beginnings. She shares her journey of…
- Uploading My Brain Fridays at 9PM · 8 minI love writing poems and creating stories with words and sound. In this chapter, I talk about how I bring my poetry to life, why I started sharing it in new ways, and how I use…
- What Is the Price of a Person? · 6 minWe’re living in a time where attention is currency and everything seems to come with a price tag. In this chapter, I reflect on fame, monetization, social media metrics…
- Listeners Around The World · 12 min🌍 Listeners Around the World In this special chapter of my documentary, I celebrate all 32 countries where this podcast is being heard. Together, we reflect on the state of the…
- The Illusion of Perfection · 9 minLately, it feels like aging is treated as a personal failure and perfection is something we’re all expected to chase. Wrinkles aren’t just lines anymore — they’re seen as flaws…
- Swiped Out of Online Dating · 10 minIn this chapter, I talk honestly about why I’ve stepped away from online dating—not from love, not from connection, but from the apps themselves. As a trans woman who later came…
